I want a clear retainer! How do i get one?

I have a wire one at the moment, top & bottom. Last time i saw my ortho was 6 months ago and actually have an appt. today at 5. Before i even got my braces off i had nagged him for a clear retainer, and to my surprise on retainer day. boom. wires. ive only had this wire retainer for 6 months, wore it maybe the first 3 and then it was on and off.. and i can already see my teeth aren't PERFECTLY straight anymore. The only reason why i didn't wear it because 1. it looks disgusting 2.it tastes disgusting and 3. my mom accidentally threw it out once and still get the jitters thinking about what it touched. and 4. i cant talk with this thing!!! i would wear it at night & around the house but not at school. i was instructed to wear it 24/7 (except when im eating). I have told my parents if i had the clear in the 1st place i wouldn't mind wearing it to school because you cant really notice it! i seriously thought i was done with wires! Helppp! Idk how to get one now.